Take the Wheel
Waiting drives me crazy. But not knowing what I'm waiting for drives me even more crazy!!
I am so looking forward to a normal schedule of work, family, church. Right now it's so in limbo. I'm out looking for work each day and have more interviews this week, but it just seems like more of the same if you know what I mean. I trust that the right job is going to come. I believe God is watching over us and providing in amazing ways. Just when I want to freak out and start worrying for real, He always seems to come through. Now I truly know that if Jesus was physically here with me, He'd tell me "oh, you of little faith!!"
I do have faith, but it's crazy sometimes how God seems to take you to the limit of that little faith, just to prove Himself all over to you again.
I want to begin to study again. I've not studied much lately, except that I have been reading a lot of Brian McLaren's books. Finished "The Secret Message of Jesus" and am in the middle of "A Generous Orthodoxy." He is an amazing thinker and writer. Just when I start thinking about writing again, he blows my mind and I think, what do I have to offer anyone??? But also he challenges me to study more and to question. Question why we believe what we've always believed.
I believe I'm embarking on another journey like I did when I turned 30, like I did when we started dreaming of Identity, like I did when Identity was birthed. I think when this one's "birthed" or brought to sight, it will be a new envisioning or "reimagining" as Doug Pagitt would say, of what church really is and what form it will take in our lives. I've already accepted and believe that it looks different in many different people's lives, but now I am even more convinced God has a new reimagining of it for our lives.
Jesus, take the wheel.
I am so looking forward to a normal schedule of work, family, church. Right now it's so in limbo. I'm out looking for work each day and have more interviews this week, but it just seems like more of the same if you know what I mean. I trust that the right job is going to come. I believe God is watching over us and providing in amazing ways. Just when I want to freak out and start worrying for real, He always seems to come through. Now I truly know that if Jesus was physically here with me, He'd tell me "oh, you of little faith!!"
I do have faith, but it's crazy sometimes how God seems to take you to the limit of that little faith, just to prove Himself all over to you again.
I want to begin to study again. I've not studied much lately, except that I have been reading a lot of Brian McLaren's books. Finished "The Secret Message of Jesus" and am in the middle of "A Generous Orthodoxy." He is an amazing thinker and writer. Just when I start thinking about writing again, he blows my mind and I think, what do I have to offer anyone??? But also he challenges me to study more and to question. Question why we believe what we've always believed.
I believe I'm embarking on another journey like I did when I turned 30, like I did when we started dreaming of Identity, like I did when Identity was birthed. I think when this one's "birthed" or brought to sight, it will be a new envisioning or "reimagining" as Doug Pagitt would say, of what church really is and what form it will take in our lives. I've already accepted and believe that it looks different in many different people's lives, but now I am even more convinced God has a new reimagining of it for our lives.
Jesus, take the wheel.
